10/30/08

• Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending
  

• When you have nothing left but love, then for the first time you become aware that love is enough

Something I Love Doing Is

I love collecting quotes and sayings. I used to have a book that I made with all of these quotes on different subjects that I would write down. Every once in while on cards to friends or in my very rare scrapbooking moments, I would use them....

The point is that I want to share this with you too... Sometimes they will be motivational, about love, about strength and faith, and some just random depending on my mood... No matter what I will try to post a saying or two every day.

This is my gift to anyone reading my blog...

SCARY HAPPENINGS

Okay so this morning I got a little shocker and it made me feel terrible and scared....

Last night after work I went and hung out with my family - My mom made meatloaf patties - ALWAYS YUM!! And Kallen beat me up as normal - Well I left and went back to Mark's house and got there around 8pm-ish. But before getting there I went to the gas station in Delta and got some homemade rice crispy treats because I knew Mark loves them.

I got home and realized I forgot my 2% Milk and asked Mark to go to the grocery store get it... I ended up changing my mind and told him to just bring me a small glass of whole milk. The night went on and this morning at work he calls me about 9 am and asked what time I wanted him to go get my milk and I told him about 8ish when I got home -

SUSPENSE -

Well he tells me that the grocery store was ROBBED AT GUN POINT at 8:00 pm last night!! Some crazy guy wanted money and drugs from the pharmacy - I of course being emotional cried because knowing Mark he would have tried to have been heroic and WHO KNOWS what could have happened. So today I am feeling a HUGE sense of gratitude.

Our story

Only one or two people who look at my blog know the story of Mark and I. Mark is of course, my boyfriend of 3 years minus a break here and there. So, I want to tell anyone who is interested in hearing the story.

It started out with my Junior year in high school. Mark was a wrestler at Delta and I took stats for wrestling at Liberty Center. The two school are huge rivals in wrestling and some years football too. So back to the story, so my junior year, Liberty's wrestling coach came over to me and said "Nagel" (Mark's last name) is asking about you... In high school I did not date much because I was so annoyed by immaturity and I wanted better things for my self than forever living in Liberty Center.

So there was our junior year, at the end of the wrestling season we were formally introduced and that was it. Nothing happened. Next we met at a Gas station by the Toledo airport in passing. He talked to me for about 1 minute and had to leave. Again, nothing happened.

In 2005 I moved to Utah for about 8 months and decided to come home for a weekend in June for my parents anniversary. I took my little cousin up to the ice cream place and he came walking up as I was getting into my car. Again, nothing happened.

So in late September 05 - I moved back to Ohio because my sister was having her baby, my Grandpa and Nana were sick - It was time to come home. So I did and two weeks after I got home, I went back to work at a place I had worked in the past. Guess who shows up, Mark. Soo random. This time, he gave me his number. We went out and the rest is history...

I know that Mark is a little rough around the edges but for once in my life now, I feel like I have someone who I want to love forever. He is a dork and makes me so mad sometimes but I cannot ignore how I feel. I know I have some work to do because I want to carry this over into eternity. We are starting our own family now and I have asked him to take the discussions so he knows for sure what we believe in. I told him my desire for FOREVER and he told me he has thought about that and about wanting to see his father again.

In the previous weeks, I have started to get excited about this baby because I know that he/she is a blessing no matter how she was created. I do know, it was not the right way but I refuse to regret my own flesh and blood and I know I will have to face my mistake someday. All I can do now is be happy and move forward. I am excited the kinds of change this baby will bring and what it will do for both Mark and I. I am already SO IN LOVE with this baby, I cry everytime I realize that I will get to hold him/her soon.

Lists of FOUR4 random things I like about my boyfriend:
1. He makes me laugh
2. He has made me less scared about being prego
3. He love chilren
4. He's very patient with me :)

4 jobs I have had:
1. Accounts Receivable
2. C.S.R. for a cash advance place - sad job
3. Ice cream server in high school
4. Waitress at a sports bar

4 Movies I have watched more than once:
1. 10 things i hate about you
2. the little mermaid
3. Free willy
4. The Goonies- Best movie EVER made

4 TV shows I watch:
1. Ghost Hunters -Grant is HOT
2. Bones
3. NCIS Reruns
4. The first 48

4 People who email me regularly:
1. My boss
2. My Nike customer service guy
3. Angie Light
4. Nina

4 of my favorite foods:
1. Lasagna
2. Manicotti
3. Sugar Cookies
4. Fried chicken roll ups - IM SO HUNGRY RIGHT NOW

4 Places I would like to visit:
1. Jerusalem
2. Cozumel
3. Jamaica
4. Tahiti

4 things I am looking forward to this year:
1. Christmas for Kallen and Makenna
2. Growing my belly out
3. Feeling my baby kick
4. Finding out what sex it is going to be

4 People to tag:
1. Corey
2) Sonya
3) Megs
4) Rachel

ABC Tag -

A- Attached or Single: Attached
B- Best Friend: Mark
C- Cake or Pie: Strawberry Rhubarb
D- Dog or Cat: Great Dane
E- Essential Item: FOOD Mom's cooking
F- Favorite Color: Yellow and Fuschia
G- Gummy Bears or Worms: Gummy Bears -the Orange and red kinds
H- Hometown: Liberty Center Oh
I- Indulgences: Lasagna
J- January or July: July
K- Kids: Anew baby in May
L- Life is incomplete without: Love, faith, hope and family
M- Marriage Date: Eventually lol
N- Number of Siblings: 1 sister
O- Oranges or Apples: Mandarine Oranges
P- Phobias or Fears: Something happening to Mark and that my pregnancy will be okay
Q- Quote: A Man with an Arguement is No Match for a Man With an Experience...
R- Reason to Smile: Holding my baby for the first time - Im so excited now
S- Something New: U of M baby outfit
T- Tag: Nobody-
U- Unknown Fact About Me: When I was little I said I wanted to be a Fire Truck
V- Vegetarian or Oppressor Of Animal: I would live to become a veggie again but sometimes meat is really good
W- Worst Habit: Messy Car
X- X-Rays or Ultrasounds: Ultrasounds
Y- Your Favorite Food: Lasagna, Corn Pudding, Manicotti, Spaghetti with my mom's Rachel Ray Meatballs, Butterfingers, Ricotta cheese, swiss cheese, and Honey Roasted Turkey Breat lunch meat with spicy mustard...Its okay Im pregnant, I know I sound like a pig
Z- Your Favorite Zoo Animal: Cute little baby Monkeys

Excited

For some reason I have never really gotten into the Christmas spirit like other people do...But this year I keep getting excited as the weather changes. I am even looking forward to listening to the local radio station which plays Christmas music for like a month.

Another reason for the excitement is the fact that by the beginning to middle latest of December, I will have had my ultrasound and will find out the sex of my baby. I want a boy REALLY bad but I get this feeling it will be a little princess...

So not only will I be buying for my awesome nephew and beautiful niece but my own baby as well...I cannot wait to start looking at baby clothes and little bits of decoration to add to the baby's room. I think my FAVORITE decoration will come from Corey. I have asked her to paint me a picture for the baby's room and I am so eager to see it and display it proudly.

Maybe its the hormones, its probably the hormones but every little emotion lately has been so intense. I am have soo much to look forward to and I cannot wait

This sweet little angel

Here is an update picture of the new edition to my sisters family!! She is so sweet and looks so peaceful. I am practicing changing her diaper so that when I HAVE to do my own childs it wont be such a shock. I did not realize how many diapers my sister has to go through with such a little baby...For instance last night I changed her and not five minutes later she went #2 again and she wont do ANYTHING with a messy bottom...

What did she do....

My sister did the something terrible...She cut all my nephews curls...I am so mad....He is still way adorable but she is making him look so grown up now. Here is the picture with his cheese smile.

Update....

Today was my doctors appointment with my OB/GYN whom I love. She is wonderful... She helped deliver my niece and spotted Stephanie disease early enough to take care of it...well for the moment anyways.

Everything went okay and so far everything is great. I am either 12 weeks today or 11 weeks and 4 days and so I am almost out of my first trimester. This means a lot of me and my baby!

First - the risk of miscarriage goes down to about 1%. Although that 1% is also how effective my birth control was supposed to have been...

Second - Mark and I can start really thinking of baby names and agree on what I want...Joking...We do know if it is a boy we are probably naming him Marcus Allen after the daddy, kind of. For a girl my FAVORITE name is Olivia but we know a lot of Olivia's.

Third - Soon, within another month or so I will begin to feel the little bugger squirm inside of me...a feeling I am antsy about because It will probably freak me out!!

Lastly, as each day goes by, the idea that I am going to be a mommy is kicking in more. I was holding Makenna this morning before work and looked down at her and realized that my baby will too be a miracle and someone I will treasure and love. I am already starting to fall in love with my little alien. I know Mark is really excited too. He touches my belly a lot and now that it is popping out more, he is growing more exciting..

So my next appointment is November 13 @ 10:00 AM and there will be an update to follow that as well. After that I will be setting up my ultrasound to find out the sex...PRAY FOR A BOY...

I stole this from someone else's blog...It's kind of fun. Just c and p and put the ones you've done in bold. Comments optional.

1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied.
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business.
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Read the entire Bible
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox
89. Saved someone’s life
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung

Our First Introduction

This is my first Ultra sound for pregnancy #1. I was happy because the Tech told me there is only one... Although Mark was hoping for twins because we could just knock two out of the way. We both have said we want 4 but I reserve the right to recant after #1 is born!! It went fairly well minus the fact I drank WAY TO MUCH water. I was dancing in the office waiting for them to call me back... The receptionist kept lifting her tall cup of coffee in a teasing manner. It was pure torture!!

So I go back and get ready and the fun begins. She started by looking at everything but the baby measuring and pushing (even more torture because I still had not used the restroom) and then finally shifted the picture to the baby!!

I am calling it a "she" because I am sure that is what I am having although my preference is a boy - But She was so tiny and just a little thing hanging out. I am somewhat of a worry wart and so I wanted to 1.) See the baby and 2.) Hear the Heartbeat. To the surprise of all my friends, I made it until the heartbeat and then I started to cry. There is something to be said for the feeling that you get when you realize that there is something you created growing inside of you!! After the heartbeat the magic show came to life, the tech told me to stop shaking and she would show me something. So I tried and then I got to see my baby moving inside of me. It did a little swish from one side and a dip!! My girl can move already!!

I was so happy yesterday and finally came to the conclusion that I am excited even though this is not the way a child should be brought into the world. I have no doubt that Mark and I will be great parents and can provide for this little baby and make a happy loving home!! I am so proud of how Mark is with this situation, he has made it less scary for me!!