I heard a quote once that someone said; Life is not measured by hours, day, or years, rather it should be measured in the moments that take your breath away. Well, I have had a lot of those moments in the last 364 days. I leave out a day only because tomorrow - Marcus will be a year old. I can usually put to words my thoughts and emotions pretty well but it seems there are no words to describe my journey so far as a Mom. I have not taken 1 second for granted with my son. I love his every move and even his fits (not quite so much if they are at 2 am in the morning) I adore his silly faces and even when he points to me and says "Bad Boy" when I yell at him. This little boy is what my life is all about. I want to give him everything I have and more. I strive to be a better person for him. He is my Hope for everything good. I have made life changing mistakes and will have to work very hard to have them forgiven. I can understand, if even in the smallest degree what kind of gift our Savior is. The love I feel for my son is so strong, it drives everything I do. And for Heavenly Father to give His Son to me as well, is a gift I will never deserve. Life means so much more now than I could have ever expected. I never really knew if I would be a Mom but nowI cannot imagine a life without it. I watch Marcus sleep at night and feel comforted that no matter what happens, I have him. I never knew that being a Mom would turn my heart to mush, fill me with so much love, and help me understand true love.
So my sweet baby Marcus, thank you for being my pride and joy and for restoring my love for a great and endlessly giving Heavenly Father. I love you so much sometimes it hurts. Happy Birthday Baby Boy!
Love,
Mommy
