Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Girls Just Wanna Have Fun....

So last night I got to hang out with Megs and Corey. We ate at Panera and had really good smoothies. Megs had the mango and I had the strawberry - It was low fat (I would not have cared if it wasnt low fat but I really wanted it) and it was still really good. It was fun talking about things we had done in the past and how we laughed at ourselves then and again now. I got to show them both how dumb I am right now, baby brain is what Corey called it. We went to Wal Mart next. Corey rode with me and Megs lead... on the way Corey gives me a gift - a handmade little baby's blanket in Mark's school's colors - Delta is Kelly green,Black, and White. It was beautiful and no doubt will be put to good use... Mark loves it too. Big hit Corey :) ! She also gave me a matching ring to one she has and Marcus' first nunies... I call them nookies but everyone corrects me - I.E. my sister. Megs bought Marcus his first little onsies, adorable little tiny blue socks for him, and wash cloths. The kid is spoiled already. But it is only because I am surrounded with people who love me and who I cannot appreciate enough! I am very very blessed...I hope to one day be able to give them the credit they deserve!!

Even though I cut out early, like 8 pm, last night was soo much fun. I laughed more in two hours than I have in a while. Its just what those two bring out in me!! I cannot wait to spoil their children someday - hopefully soon.

Monday, December 29, 2008

22 weeks and growing...


Here is my 22 week belly. I feel like I have just expanded so much in the last couple weeks. Its nice now because people can see that I am not just into weird food combinations but that I am pregnant. I have not seen any stretch marks yet but I am sure they are coming. I have gain 19lbs to date. It seems like a ton to me since I read that most women gain 25-35 lbs and I JUST hit the half way point two weeks ago. I am going to slow way down on my salt intake and more on fresh fruits and veggies. I am not going to get crazy but I think that maybe I am eating a little to much fast food :) Ooops
On a side note: Today I get to see Corey, Megs, and I believe Rachael Kirkham. I am so excited. I cannot wait to take time and feel like we are back in the old days when we didn't really have to be so grown up. I miss those days when we would get together and spend all day and night laughing. Corey with her chainsaw laugh, Megs with her dancing to the music in the car. These two girls have been like sisters to me and I miss them sooo much.... My favorite is when Corey and I took a road trip with Megs. She was headed off to EFY in NY. I almost hit an Amish buggy and it was soo much fun! Corey and I got our I HEART NY t-shirts. If only there were a hundred more times like that!!

Friday, December 26, 2008

Finish the sentence

Finish the sentence - It is really fun :)
I am Pregnant with a baby boy
I know everything will be okay
I want to be financially stable for my family
I have some new maternity clothes
I wish I was In Florida right now with Mark and Marcus laying out working on a tan
I hate when customer service people are rude
I miss Mark but he is doing everything for Us
I fear the stupid people on the road
I Feel pain when I see someone alone, and when I cannot do anything to help my family
I hear my nephew call -Aray and My niece's tiny giggles
I smell my old heater at work - Uck
I crave lasagna - crab legs- and lobster tail
I search for answers all the time
I wonder what Marcus will be like - Mark or I
I regret things I have done to hurt others and to curve my path
I love my family more than I can express and My special blue bundle of joy!
I care about making my loved ones happy
I always tell people I love - I love you - You never know when it could be your last words to them
I am not so sure how much weight my knees can take - they hurt already
I believe that God has given me such a great gift
I dance only when I have the energy to get my lazy bum up these days
I sing out loud ALL THE TIME
I fight mean - but I regret a lot so I try not to
I write in this blog like its my new joournal
I lose my temper a lot when I drive
I win when I give Mark the silent treatment - then he knows I am seriously mad
I never leave a bathroom without washing my hands
I listen to the radio every morning on my way to work
I am scared of being helpless
I need to remember to take my prenatal EVERYDAY
I hope I will be a good Mommy

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Classic old pictures









It feels so long ago but I love these ladies still SO much!

Blessed

Over the last 3 1/2 months, my life has changed completely. I know that it does for everyone who finds out they are having a baby but I believe my change has gone deeper than I realized at first. For instance, I know I do not deserve the chance to be a mother right now but I feel blessed nonetheless for it. I have really been struggling so much with the guilt of how I got pregnant and that it happened outside the union of marriage. I make no excuses and have regrets... but I still cannot get over the immense feeling that this is the best thing to ever happen to me. I love this child so much and think about him constantly throughout the day. I think about what he will be like, how he will grow, if he will be athletic or smart, and if he will be like me or his father. But I always think of him with such gratitude that I cannot describe. A little over a year ago, I thought I had a disease that is shared by my mom and sister called P.C.O.S. that would prevent me from even having children. I got checked and everything was okay - I was clear. I was scared that I never would have the chance to be a mom and then I thought - Do I really want kids - it scared me bad - being in charge... I like to hang out and play but go home to sanity. But now, with Marcus Alan (our baby's name) I feel him kick and I find myself constantly touching my belly in eager anticipation for the next one. I take good care of myself now because I know he already depends on me. Some choices I have made in the past are no longer a question, I will always be able to be there in a second with no hesitation or problems.

To be honest with everyone including myself - I believe that this is the most defining thing I will ever be a part of...I will be a good wife but I want to be one heck of a mom. I cannot wait to see Marcus grow and talk and make me proud of who he is. My heart was full before I got pregnant but now its complete!

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Here is another picture of my muscle man


Here he is...


ITS A BOY

Yes... I am having a little blue bundle of joy!! I cannot wait to see what my son is going to look like. Thanks to everyone who loves and supports this whole process I get to experience. I love you all and appreciate you more than you know!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

PINK or BLUE

I would like some guesses - What do you think PINK or BLUE - girl or boy!! I get my ultrasound today at 3:30 pm so lemme know. I am clueless myself

Monday, December 15, 2008

Just a little quick note

I just wanted to comment on how great of a day today is. So far it has been running smooth and without a hitch ( I think that is how that saying goes ). But it got WAY better when I got an answered prayer - for someone else!! I love this person soooooo much and cannot wait for the good things to keep rolling for them!! YAY FOR YOU...You know who you are!! Distant kisses and hugs...love ya

Friday, December 12, 2008

Sweet Dreams

I forgot to include my dream in my last entry. And again as you guessed it - It is about the only thing I talk about on here - My baby!!

So I have not really narrowed down what I think I am having anymore. At first I thought it was a girl and then a boy and now I am unsure but in my dream it was a BEAUTIFUL baby girl. She was so pretty with dark hair and big eyes. She had a round face and was smiling and coo-ing. It was an awesome dream. It made me feel all warm inside. Lol

I had this dream no doubt because I am constantly thinking about Tuesday and what news we will get. I am torn now because I want a boy so I can watch him wrestle and play football but I think I would have a very sweet little girl. I am sure she will be prissy just to get back at me for not being a girly girl but that would be okay. I have come to conclude that as long as he or she is healthy that is all I want. Everything is going to be okay!!

Have I told you I am sooo excited for Tuesday?!

So excited

I had my check up yesterday with my OB. Everything went great. I love that I get to hear my baby's heartbeat every time I go to the Doctor. My mom bought my sister a little contraption that you put on your belly and listen with headphones and you can hear the heartbeat yourself. I tried but I think I am too early still.

I have a fun little baby that must already understand humor! It seems that he/she kicks at the most random but perfect moments. Like when I am at work and I am talking on the phone and it surprises me and I fumble over my words. Yeah, that really funny! Or when I start to raise my voice to Mark or He makes me mad, the baby kicks, really he/she does. Almost in a manner like, Don't be mean to daddy. Mark thinks it is particularly funny!!

Remember; The count down is now to 5 days until I can give my baby a name - Either Marcus or Madison! Yay for technology. I was told to drink some high sugary drink so that the baby is active and they can get a good view of everything!! I AM SOOO EXCITED FOR TUESDAY

Monday, December 8, 2008

New picture




Here is the latest picture of the growing baby bump. I am feeling the baby kick a lot now! Most are still faint kicks but every once in a while I get a good one! Those catch me off guard and I tend to jump but It is another amazing feeling. It takes some of the stress out of being pregnant for me when I can feel my baby moving!! This trimester is fun so far but I am already getting anxious and want it to be over!! Remember December 16th is coming up soon and I will let everyone know what we are having!




Tuesday, December 2, 2008

New haircut




I hate it by the way- My hair was so long and the lady cut it about 3 inches shorter than I wanted. I hate it!

The anticipation

I cannot wait until December 16, 2008. This is the date that I will find out what color to dress my bundle of joy. Boy or girl - Blue OR Pink - Yellow is a must no matter what since it is my favorite color.

Oh and an update - The cute little belly isnt so cute anymore. It is starting to get bigger and bigger and so the scale rises with it. But I am eating mostly healthy food with a big mac every now and then!!